Wednesdays are the day I usually blog about what’s new in our house, but there’s one piece of news I’ve been holding back for a few weeks now. I’ve been struggling with the question of how to tell you all, and in the end I decided I’d just let Annabelle do it, so here she is:
She’s going to be a big sister! It’s still early, but I just couldn’t wait to share the news any longer. I had originally thought to wait until I reached twelve weeks, which won’t be until January, but the longer I held off the crazier it made me. I realized that the whole waiting until the second trimester thing just isn’t me. What’s the use in being a blogger if I can’t over share about every detail of my life?
In the first week or two after I learned I was pregnant, I really was incredibly nervous. I was and am thrilled, but at only three weeks and two days, I deeply felt the uncertainty of it all. That faint, faint little line was a promise of wonderful things, but my goodness was it ever faint! We waited to tell most everyone, save for a few special people we see every week. Little by little, however, I have relaxed, and Annabelle has had a lot to do with my ability to let go of the fear. I’ve been listening to a cd of “pregnancy affirmations,” which is part of the Hypnobabies program I used for Annabelle’s birth. It includes such reassuring statements as, “My baby is healthy and safe inside me now.” Annabelle absolutely loves these, and asks for the, “baby song” every time we get in the car.
One day, not long after I had played the cd around her for the first time, I was doing some laundry while Annabelle sat nearby and seemingly out of nowhere she said, “Baby healthy. Baby safe.” Of course intellectually I know she was just repeating something she had heard, but it was just what I needed to hear at the time. Now that she’s fully familiar with the affirmations, it’s commonplace for her to repeat them. I particularly enjoy hearing her say words like pregnancy and hemoglobin. Another favorite is when she says, “New baby, ‘nique self,” because “This is a new birth, and a new baby, unique unto itself.” She is the ultimate stress reliever.
So far, the first trimester seems to be very similar to the same stage of my first pregnancy. For me, this means extreme tiredness to the point that I can’t function for more than about ten or twelve hours out of the day. Every afternoon, I go to put Annabelle down for a nap and end up taking one myself, whether I like it or not. Every evening, I fall asleep right along with her, sometime around seven pm.
This news, then, also answers the question of why I’ve been such a lousy blogger. Remember how I accepted the challenge of posting every day during the month of November as part of NaBlogPoMo, and then managed to post even less than I would have in a normal month? That’s because I was too busy sleeping to blog. I will likely continue to miss regular blogging days here and there for the next little while, and I’m taking longer than I’d like to answer comments and visit all of my favorite blogs, but I hope you’ll bear with me. I’m trying to let go of my own ideas of what I “should” do and give myself permission to rest and relax so that I can fully enjoy this pregnancy, and my last months with just Annabelle on the outside. So far, so good.
And so that’s that. What’s new with you?